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We live in very politically correct times and there is nothing wrong with that, we were all put on this Earth to live together.

For the benefit of the bigots who don’t see anything wrong with their behavior we have laws preventing discrimination against skin color, religious background, age, gender, sexuality.

I have in my own little world lived the person that i am for many years. I first started getting turned on my stories of domination when i was as young as 13 and remember vividly getting more aroused than ever by a story of a man humiliated and whipped by a group of young girls and being made to service them in whatever way they commanded and he ended up breaking down and crying in front of them. i just though that was so erotic.

and so i have moved directionally more and more in that way. i have for a long time worn ladies panties ( i was 14 or 15 the first time and stole them from a cousin) and now i wear nothing but. Is that fetish or perversion or just lifestyle?

i wear make up and i love chastity – do i love not cumming? no of course not – what i love is being turned on and have always found that more pleasurable than the orgasm and above that i have discovered that being turned on inside the mind is the most powerful stimulation of all. so for me when denied by Goddess it is the most intense feeling of pleasure to be controlled to the extent that i will give up and She would take away that ability. Fetish perversion or lifestyle?

the reason that i am writing this blog is because we are prepared to accept people regardless of all the ism’s i mentioned above and society has now moved to the point where gay’s are in the main only persecuted by the mindless bigots. however walk down the road not holding hands with a person of the same sex but with a lead around your neck with the other end in the hands or a master or mistress and society shuns away.

as part of my separation all manner of revelations have been made, what i was doing on Niteflirt, who i talked to and about what, why i was in possession of panties and high heels and other sex toys. i have been caller a pervert and told i am sick. i have had letter posted to me and received unkind and nasty text messages, so is it a fetish or am i pervert or am i just being me – and is it ok to just be me.

love Sissy Michelle

This is my most recent drawing that i have done for Goddess Mz Devon. i had forgotten that i was supposed to draw this for her so it took longer to get to her then i (and i am sure Mz Devon) would have liked. However as soon as i remembered i got it done in record time compared to previous drawings.

I chose to do this picture first out of set because the pose i think is amazing and it is a great shot of her feet. The look on Mz Devon’s face was fun to draw as you can tell that she is just thinking “Yes I know I have sexy feet and that you want to worship them”. :)

I do go through some torment when ever I draw a new picture for Goddess Mz Devon. What I mean is I do get highly aroused while looking at her picture as a study and it takes all my willpower to stay focused and not stray or touch myself. As i know that i am only to do so with Mz Devon’s permission and ONLY with her permission. It does become very hard to stay focused at times (especially during certain photos/drawings) but i can honestly say that i have not ever given into that temptation and have not touched myself without permission.

There will be more drawings in this set to come. I will be doing 3 more to complete this set of drawings for Goddess Mz Devon

My name is mado,i’m 31,i have found my pretty Goddess in the livejournal,since the first moment i have seen her photos i have been so attracted to her beauty,i had some trouble in the beginning in contacting her and tributing,so i did my best to have her trust,to not be just a time waster,i have been reading more and more of her words,looking too much at her beauty,she is perfect and amazing,i felt that worshipping her is all what anyone should do,being under her rule and living 4 her,i have been so interested in femdom,but i haven’t found pretty dominant mistress as the one who has been always in my dreams till i could find Goddess Devon,her beauty has never left my mind even 4 one moment,i have big desire in my mind control,foot fetish,financial slavery,i’m just waiting 4 her permission 4 training me as being her slave and to serve her as it should be with her commands.

My Goddess Devon You are my life, my powerful mistress.i will live only to serve You.my thoughts are filled with your beauty, your power over me,
i cannot rid my mind of your influence, it is pointless to try.i always gaze at your beauty which pout mesmerize me,then your eyes which sparkle with imagined torments.i sink to my knees before you, transfixed in adoration.

Before You i kneel every time,
i feel like i am Your slave full time,
You are the one whom i devote myself and all of my life ,just for you,Your happiness is what im living for,i will be yours forever, serving you ,adoring you

You are my Goddess Devon.

slave mado

 

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Well the title says it all really. it has been a hell of a year. there are many who wont have read a blog from me either before or for some time so perhaps i should say a little about me. ok yes i know thats very boring because the purpose of my and many others blogs are to bow before and celebrate our deity Goddess Devon.

i am or at least was a Devonite and i think i have worshipped Goddess for around four years. i am one of the discarded deadwoods that Goddess refers to in her own blog. i think however that it is worth blogging if for no other reason than to serve as a warning to those who serve now and think they have this sorted – serving long term is hard and they would be advised to recognize this and to also recognize that they are the lucky few and should maintain the servitude and perhaps take it to an even higher level.

so 2009 has been especially difficult for me as i have divorced my wife (now ex) and am living in a flat in London. Bizarre then that serving Goddess Devon created the financial pressures that caused my marital downfall and precipitated living in a flat which is what i discussed when i was actively serving but now that i am alone i have lost Goddess too.

i am able to dress in panties daily and have even thrown away my male underpants, i sleep in kitty pyjamas and i can wear girly smelly stuff when i am on my own. i can wear lipstick and mascara when i want and i can walk to the local store for milk wearing girly clothes under a coat and nobody knows except me.

however it has been emotionally draining. getting divorced has taken its toll and has made me a shadow of what i once was. confidence has gone and i feel so low at times and laughably so submissive even though i serve very little these days.

Goddess was to lock me up about Q3 and i paid for the lock twice but as usual i did something wrong and it never worked out and now i find myself gone…..

unwanted by the people closest to me…

happy 2010 to you all and please make sure you dont slip up

love sissy michelle

xx