It feels kind of shameful to write this entry since it’s about me doing something stupid that annoyed Goddess Mz Devon. Still the past is the past now and i can’t change it but hopefully i’ve learned from it, more importantly Goddess Mz Devon was willing to forgive me and move on from it.

Basically i did something stupid in sort of making myself scarce to Goddess Mz Devon due to feeling a little bit poor. Still to make matters worse barely a day before Goddess Mz Devon had spoken about how She does like that i had been checking in daily even if it was just to say hi. Obviously then staying offline a couple days was a stupid thing to do.

Still eventually it come time after a couple days when i had to come forth and admit to Goddess Mz Devon what had gone on. While She was annoyed and put the fear into me about not having a chance to serve Her any more i was lucky to earn some forgiveness. i knew it was the right thing to do to leave as ordered then set about making things right so i made sure i had the funds for a tribute then sent it without bothering Her. After that i figured i should go explain the silly logic that went through my head. See my logic on this topic is that ‘words are cheap’ when it comes to apologizing so i leave words until after i’ve made a genuine attempt to prove i was sorry.

Luckily for me Goddess Mz Devon accepted my apology and has taught me a valuable lesson. i seriously never meant to annoy Goddess Mz Devon but feel so much better having made the right moves to make things right, mainly accepting my mistake rather than pretending i did nothing wrong. After all Goddess Mz Devon is the judge of that.

It’s now been a week since i had the great honor of serving The Goddess Mz Devon. Serving Her was unbelievable, for me it was the most intense worship and service i’ve experienced. Now lots of women can put a sub in a good place for service but it takes an amazing woman to drive a sub crazy. That is exactly what Goddess Mz Devon does to me, She makes the need to please Her so great that rational thought goes out the window. It really is incredible, in order please Her i kept tributing more and more despite leaving myself with so little. Having said that there is no regret with serving The Goddess Mz Devon, just excitement for next time.

So here i am broke, as of last weeks draining which left me under $20 until payday and i’m still anxiously awaiting for my next chance to worship and tribute Goddess Mz Devon. In fact i can hardly wait for that feeling i get when She reduces me to a completely obedient, 100% submissive dedicated to Her. Truth is i feel much that way whenever i think of Her, which is often. However there is an even more intense, extreme feeling when Goddess Mz Devon is excited and sets Her sights on breaking my mind and bending my will to Hers.

Unless You’ve served Goddess Mz Devon it is probably hard to understand the level of intensity serving Her creates, but if You have then you understand perfectly and are just like me i’m sure.

i’ve now been very lucky and honored to serve Goddess Mz Devon on a couple occaisions and have communication with Her for a couple weeks almost. In this 2 weeks or so i’ve experienced what its like to have a Woman totally get into my thoughts.

For instance i went to my best friends birthday the other night. Earlier The Goddess Mz Devon had asked if there would be women there and when i responded that there would She told me to imagine they were Her. Obviously Goddess Mz Devon knew i could imagine then face disappointment when it becomes apparent they are nothing like Her. Still the fact is all through the party etc i had Goddess Mz Devon on my mind, dominating my thoughts. In fact i even considered leaving early on multiple occaisions but since it was my best friend i figured i should stay. In the end i was supposed to stay at my friends place but in the very early hours of the morning it was too much i wanted to go home and see if i could catch The Goddess Mz Devon. By this point i was pretty drunk and tired but i just had to get home in case i could catch Her, lucky for me i did, only briefly though, still completely worth it.

The best thing about all this having a wonderful, amazing Goddess in your mind all the time. It’s strange to completely crave Her attention and Her happiness even if it does put me in a tricky spot financially. Still Goddess Mz Devon is perfect and has a way of making suffering so sweet.

Thank You Goddess Mz Devon

i knew i was in trouble with how weak and utterly desperate to please The Goddess Mz Devon i have been. Though what happened tonight totally took everything to a new level. i’m lost for words all i can say is wow!! The Goddess Mz Devon decided She was going to mind fuck me a little and use me for Her pleasure.

The Goddess Mz Devon painted some vivid pictures in my head so well that they felt real, it practically felt like i was there in front of Her, serving Her as She instructed. i was weak and so desperate to please Her, i sent The Goddess Mz Devon about 15 tributes all up and a total of $400 or so.. It was impossible to resist, as my Goddess pushed all the right buttons i felt totally trapped and compelled to tribute more over and over again that happened until The Goddess Mz Devon decided it was over.

i was left hard, horny and totally desperate but The Goddess Mz Devon got all the pleasure. Even now while i write this my balls are aching! Blue balls are not a pleasant feeling except for the fact that The Goddess Mz Devon is amused by my situation.

Yes to sum all this up i tributed a lot of money to The Goddess Mz Devon who then was satisfied while i am left aching for release. i know this sounds strange to some perhaps but for me its far more important that my Goddess is satisfied than myself and despite all this i loved every second. The important part is that The Goddess Mz Devon enjoyed Herself.

my mind has been totally blown tonight and even as i was informed that i have been ruined for other women it felt natural and right. Thank You Goddess Mz Devon you are perfect.