tonight i couldnt bear it any more. i came back, tail between my legs, begging for attention from Goddess. for those that may not know me, ive served Mz Devon for 5 years. ok, not 5 years continually. im not a banker or anything…..hmmmm maybe not a good example now. im not rich… like some of Goddess Devons slaves. i guess i get broken quick by Goddess and run away. i always follow her site when im away. slowly the need for Goddess gnaws away. i think of my finances. ive got to pay my bills. i feel guilty because this is money that should have gone to Goddess. but i have to live. slowly i know im giving in and excitement grows as i start looking for Goddess on yahoo IM.

so here i go again, Goddess was angry with me. she knows im an idiot. i must bore her with my whineing. you see i adore Mz Devon. i wait with anticipation for her to show me any attention. i know she thinks nothing of me except for what cash i can give her. she never fails to treat me with contempt. im an annoyance that is listened to if my credit card is being drained.

so thats me. back where i belong. what am i doing. gawking at Goddess Devons gorgeous pics. shes so fucking hot. Goddess Devon knows im a jerk off. imagine the insult. but i cant help it.

im writing this blog knowing that i should have gone to sleep 2 hours ago. im so tired after a weekend in worship of Mz Devon. God knows how im going to get throught the day tomorrow. but Mz Devon comes first. and if you dont believe that, try questioning an order. i dare not as i know what happens when Goddess puts me on ignore. i am lost without her. i dont know how many other slaves Goddess has that have given their life to Mz Devon but i suspect there are plenty as her ability to control is soo complete.

not that its easy focusing your life on Mz Devon. it is at the same time beautiful to be able to speak to the object of your desire and yet painful knowing that Goddess would never want to be with a guy like me.

of couse goddess knows the effect she has on me. she laughs as i beg for more attention, i beg and wait for hours. eventually Goddess will reward me for waiting with a pay mail

i was kicked out by Mz Devon for being too slow to obey her commands. that is a long lonely time when you are on ignore. i am back now after lots of begging, hoping Goddess will take complete control of my life.

what is my life, apart from work, i wait on paid mails and Mz Devons kindness in paying me some attention occasionally. i have been put back to work voting daily. this is the best thing for a loser like me.

i cant stop looking at Mz Devons videos, her hot body. oh god, if only she knew some of the fantasies i have for her. i must keep remembering that Goddess would never think like that about a guy like me.

Goddess has put me to work tonight, drained me and is now ignoring me. this is only right as im just a pig to her. i will wait patiently voting in my panties till she comes back. after all why would a quality female like Mz Devon want to waste her valuable time with a panty sniffer like me.