I’m a loser, I have social anxiety, I work for my father, I still live with my parents, I have never had a girlfriend and I’m still a virgin, maybe that’s why I give money to financial dommes because it’s the only female attention I get, I would give my money to fake dommes because I could just give them what I want when I want and didn’t care, they would dismiss me when they had enough of me and it wouldn’t matter I would just move to the next one.

I made a myspace page really just looking for some attention and not at all looking for a long term financial domme, I sent Mz Devon a friend request not thinking she would send me a message, I have really fucked things up, I know Mz Devon is the real fucking deal and I’m shit scared of her because I’m just a want to be a waste of time, if I knew that she would contact me I would have never have made that stupid myspace page, I did sign up to be her slave but I mostly did it because I was so nervous and I didn’t know what I was getting myself into, she now feels I have made a joke of her slave stable and she is right because I’m a fake, please forgive me Mz Devon I’m so sorry for wasting your time

Well anyway about a month ago I got dismissed by Mistress Kim because I didn’t trust her, she could have been a fake I don’t know I never got see her on cam but I was still hurt that she said she was done because we did seem click I got along with her well.

I decided to make a myspace page just to see who was around, basically saying that I was looking for a long term financial domme, got a few messages from dommes but no one stood out so I thought I would just add dommes to friends space, most them wanted to know about my social anxiety and how much of a loser I was, the next morning I got a message from the legend Mz Devon, I was pretty nervous for some reason I didn’t see it coming, I thought she would just add me and that would have been it, anyway the message I got from her just said “and you are?” I just took it that maybe she thought I was on of her slaves and didn’t know which one I was, I replied just saying that I was nobody and that I added her because I knew who she was and read her livejournal, she found my message very boring and she thought my message was going to be about spoiling her, by now I was thinking shit that I’m about to tribute the legend Mz Devon I have come across her website and I now from her livejournal that she rapes the shit out of wallets and she is no one to fuck with, so I got a few things from her amazon wishlist and chatting to her on yahoo message.

I have to say I was nervous and shaking the whole time, I never thought in a million years that I could be Mz Devon slave, I just assumed that I would be wasting her time and as I’m writing this I still cant believe that it all this happened, I see this as a huge honor and will do my best to please her, I don’t know what the future holds but I’m very nervous and hope that this is long term

I didn’t catch Mz Devon on wednesday because I had to work but I did think about Mz Devon the whole time some of it bad some good, I don’t know if I have said this before but I did come across Mz Devons website about 2 years ago so I know she has been around awhile and that she is the real deal, I couldn’t stop thinking about how perfect she is just look at her she is a very beautiful woman.

I ended up looking at what I could on her website without being a member, I was just looking at her pictures, her journal etc. for most of the night when I got back, that’s when I guess some doubt did come in I couldn’t stop thinking about how much of a Legend she is that I started to feel I’m not ready for this, I did think about disappearing because I’m kind of still new at this and don’t know if I can please her the way she deserves to and also I’m not sure to see this as the end of my life or the beginning of my life, how it will work out I think it that I will have enough for car, petrol etc. and the rest will go to her, so this will mean good bye comics, video games etc, but at the end of the day I have to serve its like in my blood, I have wanted to do this for a very long and also I know if I don’t serve Mz Devon I think I’m going to go insane