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We live in very politically correct times and there is nothing wrong with that, we were all put on this Earth to live together.

For the benefit of the bigots who don’t see anything wrong with their behavior we have laws preventing discrimination against skin color, religious background, age, gender, sexuality.

I have in my own little world lived the person that i am for many years. I first started getting turned on my stories of domination when i was as young as 13 and remember vividly getting more aroused than ever by a story of a man humiliated and whipped by a group of young girls and being made to service them in whatever way they commanded and he ended up breaking down and crying in front of them. i just though that was so erotic.

and so i have moved directionally more and more in that way. i have for a long time worn ladies panties ( i was 14 or 15 the first time and stole them from a cousin) and now i wear nothing but. Is that fetish or perversion or just lifestyle?

i wear make up and i love chastity – do i love not cumming? no of course not – what i love is being turned on and have always found that more pleasurable than the orgasm and above that i have discovered that being turned on inside the mind is the most powerful stimulation of all. so for me when denied by Goddess it is the most intense feeling of pleasure to be controlled to the extent that i will give up and She would take away that ability. Fetish perversion or lifestyle?

the reason that i am writing this blog is because we are prepared to accept people regardless of all the ism’s i mentioned above and society has now moved to the point where gay’s are in the main only persecuted by the mindless bigots. however walk down the road not holding hands with a person of the same sex but with a lead around your neck with the other end in the hands or a master or mistress and society shuns away.

as part of my separation all manner of revelations have been made, what i was doing on Niteflirt, who i talked to and about what, why i was in possession of panties and high heels and other sex toys. i have been caller a pervert and told i am sick. i have had letter posted to me and received unkind and nasty text messages, so is it a fetish or am i pervert or am i just being me – and is it ok to just be me.

love Sissy Michelle

 

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Well the title says it all really. it has been a hell of a year. there are many who wont have read a blog from me either before or for some time so perhaps i should say a little about me. ok yes i know thats very boring because the purpose of my and many others blogs are to bow before and celebrate our deity Goddess Devon.

i am or at least was a Devonite and i think i have worshipped Goddess for around four years. i am one of the discarded deadwoods that Goddess refers to in her own blog. i think however that it is worth blogging if for no other reason than to serve as a warning to those who serve now and think they have this sorted – serving long term is hard and they would be advised to recognize this and to also recognize that they are the lucky few and should maintain the servitude and perhaps take it to an even higher level.

so 2009 has been especially difficult for me as i have divorced my wife (now ex) and am living in a flat in London. Bizarre then that serving Goddess Devon created the financial pressures that caused my marital downfall and precipitated living in a flat which is what i discussed when i was actively serving but now that i am alone i have lost Goddess too.

i am able to dress in panties daily and have even thrown away my male underpants, i sleep in kitty pyjamas and i can wear girly smelly stuff when i am on my own. i can wear lipstick and mascara when i want and i can walk to the local store for milk wearing girly clothes under a coat and nobody knows except me.

however it has been emotionally draining. getting divorced has taken its toll and has made me a shadow of what i once was. confidence has gone and i feel so low at times and laughably so submissive even though i serve very little these days.

Goddess was to lock me up about Q3 and i paid for the lock twice but as usual i did something wrong and it never worked out and now i find myself gone…..

unwanted by the people closest to me…

happy 2010 to you all and please make sure you dont slip up

love sissy michelle

xx

 

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I am so fucked up right now. I have just finished watching Goddess on cam and i am mentally paralyzed. Its been such a long time since i saw her on cam and Her beauty and sexuality just made me melt. It was a wonderful session in which She showed me the lock that She will engrave and send to me so that i can lock my cock away for Her pleasure. i have begged and begged and now it is going to happen. Whilst i am making this blog Goddess is engraving the lock to uniquely identify it so that She knows that it is Her lock that stops my cock getting hard so whenever i am suffering from lust just as i am now it will be curtailed. Of course it means that i will have to find other forms of relief and maybe i will have to insert things inside my mancunt.

Goddess also showed me some items of clothing that She has picked out for me. Some nice pink girly pajamas that i will wear for bed and a sexy teddy and panty set that i will use to make videos in.

my sissyfication is accelerating and some of the things Goddess wants for me are scary and exciting and i don’t know whether to get hard… soon i wont be able to

I am loving my transformation and hope that it interests others

love sissy michelle

xxx

Edited by Mz Devon : Here’s the lock everyone!

 

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This morning I was waking from my sleep in bed when I logged onto Yahoo on my BlackBerry and found Goddess online.

We chatted and after a short while we chatted about Her control. It has long since been a desire of mine to be locked in a chastity cage by Goddess where she holds the key. We have played this before with a numbered security lock but somehow it seems so much more erotic and controlling if someone else holds the key. I begged and begged and eventually Goddess tested my resolve and the joy at passing the test was immense and Goddess agreed to send me a unique lock identifiable to only Her. Goddess will hold the key and hopefully wear it on a chain on Her person and only send it to me on special occasions. I will of course film the whole locking ceremony. I think it would be so so cool to have some film of Goddess buying the lock and keeping the key and then posting it. On my side I will cam opening the package and putting on the cage and then locking it in place.

We also discussed other ways in which I can be further feminised and Goddess shared with me a new MP3 recording which is just AWESOME and you just have to buy mmmm
I will talk about how else I could be feminised in a further blog.

Talk soon love sissy Michelle xxx