We live in very politically correct times and there is nothing wrong with that, we were all put on this Earth to live together.

For the benefit of the bigots who don’t see anything wrong with their behavior we have laws preventing discrimination against skin color, religious background, age, gender, sexuality.

I have in my own little world lived the person that i am for many years. I first started getting turned on my stories of domination when i was as young as 13 and remember vividly getting more aroused than ever by a story of a man humiliated and whipped by a group of young girls and being made to service them in whatever way they commanded and he ended up breaking down and crying in front of them. i just though that was so erotic.

and so i have moved directionally more and more in that way. i have for a long time worn ladies panties ( i was 14 or 15 the first time and stole them from a cousin) and now i wear nothing but. Is that fetish or perversion or just lifestyle?

i wear make up and i love chastity – do i love not cumming? no of course not – what i love is being turned on and have always found that more pleasurable than the orgasm and above that i have discovered that being turned on inside the mind is the most powerful stimulation of all. so for me when denied by Goddess it is the most intense feeling of pleasure to be controlled to the extent that i will give up and She would take away that ability. Fetish perversion or lifestyle?

the reason that i am writing this blog is because we are prepared to accept people regardless of all the ism’s i mentioned above and society has now moved to the point where gay’s are in the main only persecuted by the mindless bigots. however walk down the road not holding hands with a person of the same sex but with a lead around your neck with the other end in the hands or a master or mistress and society shuns away.

as part of my separation all manner of revelations have been made, what i was doing on Niteflirt, who i talked to and about what, why i was in possession of panties and high heels and other sex toys. i have been caller a pervert and told i am sick. i have had letter posted to me and received unkind and nasty text messages, so is it a fetish or am i pervert or am i just being me – and is it ok to just be me.

love Sissy Michelle

Well the title says it all really. it has been a hell of a year. there are many who wont have read a blog from me either before or for some time so perhaps i should say a little about me. ok yes i know thats very boring because the purpose of my and many others blogs are to bow before and celebrate our deity Goddess Devon.

i am or at least was a Devonite and i think i have worshipped Goddess for around four years. i am one of the discarded deadwoods that Goddess refers to in her own blog. i think however that it is worth blogging if for no other reason than to serve as a warning to those who serve now and think they have this sorted – serving long term is hard and they would be advised to recognize this and to also recognize that they are the lucky few and should maintain the servitude and perhaps take it to an even higher level.

so 2009 has been especially difficult for me as i have divorced my wife (now ex) and am living in a flat in London. Bizarre then that serving Goddess Devon created the financial pressures that caused my marital downfall and precipitated living in a flat which is what i discussed when i was actively serving but now that i am alone i have lost Goddess too.

i am able to dress in panties daily and have even thrown away my male underpants, i sleep in kitty pyjamas and i can wear girly smelly stuff when i am on my own. i can wear lipstick and mascara when i want and i can walk to the local store for milk wearing girly clothes under a coat and nobody knows except me.

however it has been emotionally draining. getting divorced has taken its toll and has made me a shadow of what i once was. confidence has gone and i feel so low at times and laughably so submissive even though i serve very little these days.

Goddess was to lock me up about Q3 and i paid for the lock twice but as usual i did something wrong and it never worked out and now i find myself gone…..

unwanted by the people closest to me…

happy 2010 to you all and please make sure you dont slip up

love sissy michelle

xx

I am so fucked up right now. I have just finished watching Goddess on cam and i am mentally paralyzed. Its been such a long time since i saw her on cam and Her beauty and sexuality just made me melt. It was a wonderful session in which She showed me the lock that She will engrave and send to me so that i can lock my cock away for Her pleasure. i have begged and begged and now it is going to happen. Whilst i am making this blog Goddess is engraving the lock to uniquely identify it so that She knows that it is Her lock that stops my cock getting hard so whenever i am suffering from lust just as i am now it will be curtailed. Of course it means that i will have to find other forms of relief and maybe i will have to insert things inside my mancunt.

Goddess also showed me some items of clothing that She has picked out for me. Some nice pink girly pajamas that i will wear for bed and a sexy teddy and panty set that i will use to make videos in.

my sissyfication is accelerating and some of the things Goddess wants for me are scary and exciting and i don’t know whether to get hard… soon i wont be able to

I am loving my transformation and hope that it interests others

love sissy michelle

xxx

Edited by Mz Devon : Here’s the lock everyone!

]]> http://www.devotionalmusings.com/2009/08/27/my-sissyfication-is-accelerating/feed/ 1 00:01:01 I am so fucked up right now. I have just finished watching Goddess on cam and i am mentally paralyzed. Its been such a long ... I am so fucked up right now. I have just finished watching Goddess on cam and i am mentally paralyzed. Its been such a long time since i saw her on cam and Her beauty and sexuality just made me melt. It was a wonderful session in which She showed me the lock that She will engrave and send to me so that i can lock my cock away for Her pleasure. i have begged and begged and now it is going to happen. Whilst i am making this blog Goddess is engraving the lock to uniquely identify it so that She knows that it is Her lock that stops my cock getting hard so whenever i am suffering from lust just as i am now it will be curtailed. Of course it means that i will have to find other forms of relief and maybe i will have to insert things inside my mancunt. Goddess also showed me some items of clothing that She has picked out for me. Some nice pink girly pajamas that i will wear for bed and a sexy teddy and panty set that i will use to make videos in. my sissyfication is accelerating and some of the things Goddess wants for me are scary and exciting and i don't know whether to get hard... soon i wont be able to I am loving my transformation and hope that it interests others love sissy michelle xxx Edited by Mz Devon : Here's the lock everyone! Blog by sissy michelle info@mzdevon.com no no http://www.devotionalmusings.com/2009/08/26/goddess-will-hold-the-key/ http://www.devotionalmusings.com/2009/08/26/goddess-will-hold-the-key/#comments Wed, 26 Aug 2009 21:31:00 +0000 Goddess Mz Devon http://devotionalmusings.com/?p=291

This morning I was waking from my sleep in bed when I logged onto Yahoo on my BlackBerry and found Goddess online.

We chatted and after a short while we chatted about Her control. It has long since been a desire of mine to be locked in a chastity cage by Goddess where she holds the key. We have played this before with a numbered security lock but somehow it seems so much more erotic and controlling if someone else holds the key. I begged and begged and eventually Goddess tested my resolve and the joy at passing the test was immense and Goddess agreed to send me a unique lock identifiable to only Her. Goddess will hold the key and hopefully wear it on a chain on Her person and only send it to me on special occasions. I will of course film the whole locking ceremony. I think it would be so so cool to have some film of Goddess buying the lock and keeping the key and then posting it. On my side I will cam opening the package and putting on the cage and then locking it in place.

We also discussed other ways in which I can be further feminised and Goddess shared with me a new MP3 recording which is just AWESOME and you just have to buy mmmm
I will talk about how else I could be feminised in a further blog.

Talk soon love sissy Michelle xxx

i am a dink – who said so?

Goddess Devon. and i am. i am a manipulated sissy slave who does as She commands me to. I love being a sissy for Goddess. What i really want now is to be locked away in a chastity cage by Goddess for as long as She thinks is sexy and amusing. Of course Goddess will add a few features like some teeth to ensure that i can not escape and of course a lock that Goddess will send to me and she knows it is Hers and She will hold the key and maybe fedex it when She wants me to perhaps release and drink my own cum for her as i become a bigger sissy for Goddess.

Goddess said She has plans for me and i hope that She wants to do things with and to me… so there you have it – i am a dink because Goddess says i am

love Sissy Michelle

Now last time i blogged i was having marital issues thanks to Goddess;s involvement. well now i am alone in my flat and of course Goddess wanted to see it so She made me turn on a cam and show myself in my pink cage and undies and other girly clothes.

Goddess said she has so many ideas as to how i can be useful and i loved Her seeing me and getting all evil over it

mmmm…. cant wait

I am almost part of this lifestyle and though I have felt as if I have been for sometime this feels very close and I feel consumed by it.

What I am I have always been since I was 11 years old I think. What I am is consuming me and doing so at an accelerated pace.

My long suffering wife has found panties and stockings and my old cage that Goddess caged me in for so long. Worse still she found credit card statements and bank statements showing what I have spent on this lifestyle.

She is as you might expect not happy. She is both upset and angry. The anger I can deal with but the upset seems so unfair despite Goddess calling her a troll. She thinks I am an addict and need counselling and she has asked me to leave though she is being realistic over timing as things are not easy right now.

The thing is, I am at a real crossroads. Either I take therapy and cure my addiction or I follow the lifestyle. One thing is sure and that one of those options HAS to happen there is no fudged issue on this one. I am scared of where I am going and it is emotionally very hard. I want yo have my clothes picked and my food chosen and bought and all of my salary going to Goddess but so scared.

Scared most of not having anyone to hug and hold hands with. I need a partner who I can share the lifestyle with.

I want to be shaved always and having my cock caged forever holds no fears as my thrills happen through shoping for ladies clothes and make up. I want to have periods and if I have to also to take hormones and to have manicures and false nails and I want to wear girly pj’s to bed and only be allowed to wear girl clothes at weekends. If Goddess wants me to wear diapers then I will.  Anything for Goddess.

Please help me.

So armed with two razors and shaving gel and warm water and a towel – oh and some hair removal mousse i set up to do it.

I put in place the cam and made some signs. I stood naked before the cam and displayed the signs showing authenticity that this was a www.mzdevon.com approved production.

Firstly I shaved under my arms and that felt strange as it’s the first time ive not had hair there ever since puberty. I know it will itch if I allow it to grow back so best let it look girly all the time I think.

Next I spayed hair removal mousse all over my chest and legs, making sure that all around the back was covered too. The instructions state that you should leave on about 8 minutes which is the time it should take me to shave my cock and balls.

I must have sprayed some onto my nut sack because it started to burn, however I shaved my pubic area and then jumped in the shower where I made sure the water was nice and hot.

It seemed funny as I rubbed my legs and the hair came off in chunks leaving brown clumps all over the shower. I washed and dried myself and looked at my girly appearance in the mirror all smooth and delicious and then back on cam to show Goddess and just to show her how smooth my legs are I put on some white stockings for her.

God I cant wait for the next stage…

Goddess will be putting up the videos we made for you all to see – so please do as she commands and use them instructively

I had been on the edge wondering when it would arrive and low and behold – today it dropped through the post box. I recognised it just as soon as it arrived and there it was and so I took it out of the bag it arrived in but was under strict instructions that it was not to be opened from Goddess. So it sits there in the silver grey box with the words CB2000 in the front wrapped still in its cellophane outer wrapping to prove its not been unopened. It will be opended soon enough and Goddess will supervise the attachment of it to my immaculately shaved body which is now free of all nasty man hair.

I am not sure how long I will be inside it for or whether I will be posting the keys direct to Goddess or damaging the lock in some way so that it doesn’t come off. I do know that Goddess plans to send me a lock of her own and she will keep the keys and it may be some time before it then comes off and I look forward to proving myself for Goddess.

We’ll be making a video of the locking away of my cock so that no female has to endure it again

The mail header said “I have decided” and of course I opened it. At this point those who read my blogs will know I have served Mz Devon for some time now and in that period my feelings about Her have changed immeasurably. She excited me like no other and I live in a perpetual state of arousal at the thought and hope of one day being sent an email that says “I have decided that I want you here by my side”. So I opened the mail to find Goddess’s thoughts that she had decided to own me even more.

Goddess has a picture of me dressed up all girly and Goddess has decided that she is going to recreate me. She is going to mold me into what she wants me to be and dress me how she likes. We are going heavy on this one.

Goddess immediately decided we needed a new chastity device which we will ceremonialy open and cage me and she has some serious heavy duty times in mind. We have ordered a pink one and pics and videos will be available when it arrives. Goddess also ordered the removal of all body hair to be recorded too for other sissies to watch and learn from.

My old life or Goddess’s as it is these days just got a lot more exciting