We live in very politically correct times and there is nothing wrong with that, we were all put on this Earth to live together.

For the benefit of the bigots who don’t see anything wrong with their behavior we have laws preventing discrimination against skin color, religious background, age, gender, sexuality.

I have in my own little world lived the person that i am for many years. I first started getting turned on my stories of domination when i was as young as 13 and remember vividly getting more aroused than ever by a story of a man humiliated and whipped by a group of young girls and being made to service them in whatever way they commanded and he ended up breaking down and crying in front of them. i just though that was so erotic.

and so i have moved directionally more and more in that way. i have for a long time worn ladies panties ( i was 14 or 15 the first time and stole them from a cousin) and now i wear nothing but. Is that fetish or perversion or just lifestyle?

i wear make up and i love chastity – do i love not cumming? no of course not – what i love is being turned on and have always found that more pleasurable than the orgasm and above that i have discovered that being turned on inside the mind is the most powerful stimulation of all. so for me when denied by Goddess it is the most intense feeling of pleasure to be controlled to the extent that i will give up and She would take away that ability. Fetish perversion or lifestyle?

the reason that i am writing this blog is because we are prepared to accept people regardless of all the ism’s i mentioned above and society has now moved to the point where gay’s are in the main only persecuted by the mindless bigots. however walk down the road not holding hands with a person of the same sex but with a lead around your neck with the other end in the hands or a master or mistress and society shuns away.

as part of my separation all manner of revelations have been made, what i was doing on Niteflirt, who i talked to and about what, why i was in possession of panties and high heels and other sex toys. i have been caller a pervert and told i am sick. i have had letter posted to me and received unkind and nasty text messages, so is it a fetish or am i pervert or am i just being me – and is it ok to just be me.

love Sissy Michelle

I chose to do this picture first out of set because the pose i think is amazing and it is a great shot of her feet. The look on Mz Devon’s face was fun to draw as you can tell that she is just thinking “Yes I know I have sexy feet and that you want to worship them”. :)

I do go through some torment when ever I draw a new picture for Goddess Mz Devon. What I mean is I do get highly aroused while looking at her picture as a study and it takes all my willpower to stay focused and not stray or touch myself. As i know that i am only to do so with Mz Devon’s permission and ONLY with her permission. It does become very hard to stay focused at times (especially during certain photos/drawings) but i can honestly say that i have not ever given into that temptation and have not touched myself without permission.

There will be more drawings in this set to come. I will be doing 3 more to complete this set of drawings for Goddess Mz Devon

My Goddess Devon You are my life, my powerful mistress.i will live only to serve You.my thoughts are filled with your beauty, your power over me,
i cannot rid my mind of your influence, it is pointless to try.i always gaze at your beauty which pout mesmerize me,then your eyes which sparkle with imagined torments.i sink to my knees before you, transfixed in adoration.

Before You i kneel every time,
i feel like i am Your slave full time,
You are the one whom i devote myself and all of my life ,just for you,Your happiness is what im living for,i will be yours forever, serving you ,adoring you

You are my Goddess Devon.

slave mado

Well the title says it all really. it has been a hell of a year. there are many who wont have read a blog from me either before or for some time so perhaps i should say a little about me. ok yes i know thats very boring because the purpose of my and many others blogs are to bow before and celebrate our deity Goddess Devon.

i am or at least was a Devonite and i think i have worshipped Goddess for around four years. i am one of the discarded deadwoods that Goddess refers to in her own blog. i think however that it is worth blogging if for no other reason than to serve as a warning to those who serve now and think they have this sorted – serving long term is hard and they would be advised to recognize this and to also recognize that they are the lucky few and should maintain the servitude and perhaps take it to an even higher level.

so 2009 has been especially difficult for me as i have divorced my wife (now ex) and am living in a flat in London. Bizarre then that serving Goddess Devon created the financial pressures that caused my marital downfall and precipitated living in a flat which is what i discussed when i was actively serving but now that i am alone i have lost Goddess too.

i am able to dress in panties daily and have even thrown away my male underpants, i sleep in kitty pyjamas and i can wear girly smelly stuff when i am on my own. i can wear lipstick and mascara when i want and i can walk to the local store for milk wearing girly clothes under a coat and nobody knows except me.

however it has been emotionally draining. getting divorced has taken its toll and has made me a shadow of what i once was. confidence has gone and i feel so low at times and laughably so submissive even though i serve very little these days.

Goddess was to lock me up about Q3 and i paid for the lock twice but as usual i did something wrong and it never worked out and now i find myself gone…..

unwanted by the people closest to me…

happy 2010 to you all and please make sure you dont slip up

love sissy michelle

xx

i found You when a friend told me about FetLife. As soon as i joined the site i started to feel wonderful. It was like i was taking the next step in my journey. (i am a spiritual guy)
i started my search in Alberta and then surrounding area. that search was interesting but i did not find a Mistress. This led me to search BC and some of the areas i would like to go to because i love golfing.  lol  When i saw and read Your profile i felt weak, literally! It was exactly what i wanted.

How i’m feeling? i’m feeling equal parts scared, excited, nervous and electric. i’m stunned that i sent all that money to You but at the same time it feels so amazingly right and good and i’m glad i did!  (It’s amazing to me how that act strengthened the connection i feel to being submissive.) That told me SO MUCH about myself because never in my wildest dreams would i have thought i would do that. Yet as soon as i saw your website i knew i was in BIG trouble.

i’ve wanted to be completely submissive to someone for so long but the Domme’s i’ve met have always left me feeling wanting and with the benefit of 20/20 hindsight i can see i wasn’t ready yet. Although i feel i have learned a lot i’m aware that there is so much more to learn and so much i don’t know and haven’t experienced.

After listening to it i am very anxious to follow her instructions and complete the task of eating my own cum for her.

I have tried to stay away from serving Goddess Mz Devon and only recently have been in contact with her again. That is when she had me do more drawings for her. But no matter how much i tried to not serve her, i end up doing so with out realizing it and without questioning it. An example is, i am usually not one to blog but Mz Devon told me to start writing blogs for her and without hesitation i write a blog and send it to her. Even when i wasn’t looking to serve and just draw a picture for Mz Devon she told me that i will serve her because she said so and I didnt think twice about talking back or trying to contridict her.

I have expressed an interest in eating my own cum so Mz Devon has given me an MP3 to do just that as a reward for her satisfaction of the drawings that i have done for her.

She also said that if i am really good that i may get a video as well becuase she loves the fact that i torment myself while working on her drawings by simple looking at her clips for sale and get all hot and bothered. completely hard and my balls aching and never touching as she hasnt given permission to. it is very tormenting and i know that the pain that i suffer from doing this makes Mz Devon laugh and happy that i am in pain for her pleasure.

I had not spoken to the enigmatic Mz Devon in some time and to be honest there seemed to be a void in my life in the absence. It’s not something that is very easy to describe but it felt like a lingering sense of disjointed unity.

Today, I got home a little early and was able to catch the Goddess Mz Devon for a bit of conversation and catching up. I felt invigorated and full of life; like before that moment I had forgotten what it was like to be whole and complete. With her infinite wisdom and guidance, she is my savior. I live my life and many things change but the one true constant is that I always return to her. My life is only complete with her in it. The world is not right if I am not serving the perfect Mz Devon.

Mz Devon has granted me the honor of using my skill set to further benefit her life by designing menus to fit her lifestyle. I am very excited to engage her in the culinary arts and further enhance her beauty and vitality.

Follow my lead, do the right thing and submit to femdom royalty, the Goddess Mz Devon beckons you

What I liked about this photo was the perspective of it and that it is a semi POV shot. The look in her eye of commanding dominance is very noticable and I tried to capture it the best that I could. She has given me more drawings to accomplish and that I am working on for her as well.

Goddess Devon, my Owner, my fate. Her voice, Her eyes. Her perfect body. Her boots. The ground She walks on. The place i belong. Of course, Goddess had me pay first. $1ooo.oo, which i didn’t have and yet sent Her. i was rock hard as i did so. Sending Goddess money makes me hard.

Goddess owns me. She’s the only One. i’ll do anything She wants. i’ll make a fool of myself, i’ll take any kind of humiliation. i will praise and please Her always, each and every day. i will work hard to bring the shadow of a smile on Her perfect face. i will change my ways, forget my bad habits, i’ll never be the same again.

i don’t need a life, i don’t need friends, i don’t need a lover, i don’t need sex. i only need to contemplate the fact that i might have pleased my Owner and my life will be complete. Goddess is everything that counts. There’s no life for me outside Her Empire. i need Her, need Her directions, assignments, orders, training. i need Her to tell me what to do, what to think. i love Her so much it’s painful. Sweet pain.

For the first time of my life, this is not only about words. i finally AM proud to be a slave, Proud Devonite Jeanny.